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Going deep....

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I really feel the same feelings from the other day. Like grief. I read over my notes but can't shake the sadness. It has come over me like a fog. I just don't know how to shake it. Maybe I need to get on an antidepressant. Maybe I just need to get away for a while. I think I need to get some serious thinking done.

Talk more freely about you midlife anxieties. Have conversations with those you’re closest to about issues troubling you.
This suggestion might be the hardest for me. I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. I have bent the ears of my friends on family issues till I am sure they wish I'd be quiet.


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