Effing the Ineffable

"We shall grapple with the ineffable, and see if we may not eff it after all." — Douglas Adams
: "I'm in the business of effing the ineffable." — Alan Watts

Right now I have a quandry. I have in my hand an incredible offer from Walgreen and also have CVMC promising that the issues with the construction will not be a problem again. I also expect an offer from Citizen's Hospital within the next few days for another 7 on 7 off hospital shift. I expected to hear from them sooner. Leanne called early this week and told me that I would hear from them that afternoon. So right now I almost have my choice of jobs. I had a couple of reasons for speaking with Amy today. First, I wanted to clear up any misidentification by those who thought I swore at Carla Weathers. I didn't. Second, I felt I failed to bring attention to bear on the problem and that my gesture was wasted. I felt like the reports to those agencies was responsible for the action. Not me. Not my email.

So here's what I believe.

I think what got things moving was the reporting. I think we may not have a repeat because more reports may follow. I think they want me to stay because of what I can do but they would prefer that I just leave. (Just because you are necessary doesn't mean you are important) But none of this is a surprise to me.

So what to do:

That is the ineffable. If I leave, it produces a cascade of change that affects everyone in the family and my work colleagues. I leave the work colleagues in a lurch that may take months to rectify if ever. I would have to find a whole new balance for all my spare times, riding, friends, tandeming, David and Max... the list goes on and on. So the quality of my living, the part that can't be sumarized in a page, the relationship with everyone, all may decline. Thus the ineffable.

Catching up

After my recovery period for Covid, I went to Cullman on Monday the 8th and started catching up on the mowing and farm stuff. Pretty much everything needed mowing. The big tractor made short work on the main north fields and David helped me with the field across from the pond. The grass had grown quite long and with the two week absence, I simply started and mowed all of them. There is always some mowing to do. At least no trees had fallen. There were some indoor projects pending. A couple of shower fixtures had to be replaced. The screen door latch didn't hold and had to be improved. The old JD mower needed a bit of tuning so it would climb better and the mowing deck replaced. And the garden needed to be disked and more corn and okra planted. David should have had a shot on the groundhog at the old house but forgot to check his ammo. The hammer fell on an empty chamber. I got the conibear traps out and caught one of the groundhogs that lived by the spring. David had ...

Island Walk

I always try to help Rachael with Hubbard/Rockford if asked. They had me down for 3 days but at last minute asked for the other day. Work at Rockford is slow so working isn't hard, but not following my usual routine tired me out a bit. I still had some work I could take care of up in Cullman. Some bushhog work and other little items but the high temps held me back a bit. I did ride my bike a little and got in some of my walking in addition to some chores. Max needed to be delivered to Charlotte, SC for his drum major camp. I volunteered to take him. I was glad to be able to perform this chore for him but the long trip up and back combined with extra heavy traffic in the Atlanta are, which extended to within 30 miles of Alabama, combined to really tire me out. There had been a problem with my left rear wisdom tooth for over a year, so I decided I should get it taken care of before I wound up isolated somewhere in PEI. The extraction didn't appear to be problematic until just be...

Effigy of Grief

Effigies are used in grieving by providing a tangible representation of what has been lost, allowing a mourner to connect with who or what they've lost , which can help with the process of acceptance and emotional expression, particularly when the loss is sudden or traumatic; they can be used to focus grief and memories around a physical likeness, offering a sense of continued presence even in their absence

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