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"The heart dies a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves until one day there are none. No hopes, none remain. I went to see Memoirs of a Geisha with Bev last night. The movie was different but visually rich. The line about the slow death of the heart was so true, I had to put it down to remember. I had never thought about how hope and love are bound together. It is all these hopes we have for the people we love that hurt so much when they die. Like a neglected plant, it dies a slow death with each leaf slowly crisping and finally dropping. But will it live again.

I have lost 10 lbs. Right now I have to guard against congratulating myself on my good work. I still have 30 pounds left to lose. I can't start feeling good about the loss with so much left to go. It would be easy to fall off the resolution wagon. This week I hope to get a good boost to the program with more exercise than last week. That allows for more food with a greater calorie deficit. I plan on spinning tonight and that will burn about 800 calories. If I can get away this afternoon, I can add to that total.

Lately I have been looking for the proper inspiration to get me through the next weeks and months. My friends have offered support in a weight loss goal. I have not made much progress up until I began using the software that allows you to record every part of food you eat. Getting ready to ride in Florida during April will be more a matter of diet than exercise. I have ridden enough to be fit for it even more than last year where I did fine. If I were able to lose weight down to 200 even, I would effectively remove the weight of 2 Road bikes. That much should have some positive effect. To continue to have enough energy, I would need to consume some extra calories when I go riding. I had enough extra reserve to allow me to go far before. But now, I am working with 900 calories below my BMR. That could lead to a bonk if I am not careful. One thing about seeing the calorie need in a graphic mode, I realize that as my weight declines, so will my resting metabolic need. So at 220, I will ne

It was a year ago today that I got parts from Nashbar and fixed up my bike to be ready for riding in Florida. With a year passed, I am a stronger rider than before. I rode 23 miles today and rode well but was held back by my extra 40 lbs on my carcass. I have started a calorie program called Fitday that has extimated my calorie restriction to hit a target weight of about 212 by April 22 in time for the Florida Bike Safari. I am not sad that I will be making the Safari again. It was a good experience albeit a little cold. That software keeps up with activities so I can take into account bike riding and exercise. It seemed like I shouldn't have gained so much weight but when I consider how much cheese, peanut butter and rich dessert I consumed during December, it isn't any wonder. My cheese consumption would add 1000 calories easily. Eating 6 power bars a day added 1200 or more calories. The most important part of the program is logging all calories consumed. That really makes yo

After about a couple of weeks, I will be going back to evening shift and the same weeks I had before. That won't be so bad. Kirk and I never managed to get together after all that time. I will be back on Spicer's evenings which is a plus. I missed the folks on that week. I won't miss the turmoil of day shift. There have been a lot of developments that have grown the job. Of course there is a good chance evenings will be saddled with nursing home stuff.