Not knowing what to say...

I really don't know what to write about. This seems to have become a pointless activity. This was my diary of the preparation for the first Florida Safari. I used it to put down some random thoughts. Now I just don't have much to say. Mike and Mitzi got married lately. I really hope this one is the ONE for Mike. Bev and I ride a lot now. By the time we hit the anniversary of the 1st Tandem, we will have racked up over 3800 miles for the year. It helped her lose weight and add muscle. Our riding and weight loss has inspired a few folks to become riders. I once thought that my 50 lbs of weight loss was significant but Chris H. lost 100 lbs and Darrel B. lost 150! If you get into cycling, the weight loss will come. Sara will be moving into her apartment by this weekend. There will be lots of growing for her to experience by being out on her own. I have lately forgotten to focus on the positives. I've been down in the dumps part of the time but I'll try to get out of them soon.

Maxwell Atticus Simon

Welcome to planet Earth. The little fellow weighed in at 8lbs 2 oz and 20 inches. I don't think he appreciates the attention he was getting at the moment. This was apparently during his weighing in and bath time. This is the time that they stick the heel for some blood work. Poor little fellow. It doesn't get much better for us. The Buddha said, "life is suffering." Ain't it the truth! But there will be some pretty nice moments. Witnessing the miracle of new life is one of the better ones. I am glad to see some males coming to the family. All those years outnumbered by the women of the house have taken a toll. Now maybe we can see some manly influence for a change.

There is an African proverb that says "when death finds you, may it find you alive".

On July 31st, I died.... After having several weeks of discomfort in my neck and jawline, I made an appointment to see my PCP to determine what was going on. The consensus seemed to center around a gall bladder problem. But he suggested that we should rule out cardiac. Once I got over to the hospital, I had a wait of 20 minutes or more before I was sent up to my room. Immediately I was taken for a chest x-ray. Once I got back I saw my nurse and the lab tech were there and I lay down to let her get the blood. As I leaned back, I felt a wave of nausea and everything went quiet and dark. I became aware again after a short period of time, I'm unsure how long. and from there it was a lengthy process to be transported to Grandview where I received a heart catherization and ultimately, bypass grafts. It was literally like hitting the off switch on your computer.

Spock

Spock is my favorite character in all fiction. A character who bridged the gap between two worlds and faced disdain from each. Who strove for excellence and exemplified strength, character, intelligence, and control. His nearly emotionless demeanor was a perfect foil for those who would attempt to intimidate or insult him. It was a style I would endeavor to imitate to thwart those attempting to insult, demean, or scare me in my own young life. I bought this little figure to remind me to guard against letting my defenses down and allowing emotional hurt to strike me. But I doubt my recollection of Spock will work for me again. It was the last gift from my past. Perhaps I will find another reservoir of strength.

diddlee

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