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S.A.D.

Life sucks! I've been wondering what has been wrong with me. NO energy. Huge appetite. Weight gain. Pessimistic. My candle of human kindness, put out. All the things that used to bring me pleasure seem absurd and joyless. I can't count how many times I've wanted to pack my backpack and just walk away and keep on walking. Work is monotonous and  I can't seem to get enough sleep. I've been trying to exercise but I find I don't have the energy to keep myself going. I have barely had enough energy to do the little runs I do at night. Then I have to sleep all I can. I've been dreaming and waking up at night. The weather stays cold enough to prevent riding my bike but I don't seem to have the enthusiasm I once had for it. I was almost ready to go see a doctor when I thought about SAD.
Symptoms of SAD may consist of: difficulty waking up in the morning, tendency to oversleep as well as to overeat, and especially a craving for carbohydrates, which leads to weight gain. Other symptoms include a lack of energy, difficulty concentrating on completing tasks, and withdrawal from friends, family, and social activities. All of this leads to the depression, pessimism, and lack of pleasure which characterize a person suffering from this disorder.
I know very little about seasonal affective disorder but I believe I must have it! The treatment calls for 30 minutes exposure to sunlight daily. I think I need the maximum dose but that may take until August to pull off. 7 days on Navarre Beach should do it.

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